How'd you get to be Happiness?

i should be so happy right now.
I'm one step closer to pursuing the dream.
and you and you do this to me now.
how can you be so self consumed?
You know not what you do.
you've ruined it.
killed it.
left it out in the rain on a lonely mountain.

Colour me Lost

Watch me disappear

Sometimes i think my heart is a balloon.
I imagine it floating inches
above me as i walk.
It bobbles with the breeze and
gets caught under bridges
and around small corners.
The higher it soars the lighter
my footsteps feel along the pavement.
Until one day the balloon was so full,
my feet scarcely touch the ground at all.
And now here I lie on the bitumen.
No balloon.

Don't promise me Paris and fall through half way.

Next time I won't be so stupid.

Future Sailors

Cyborg Seadog tell me what you dream of?

My Nautical 21st.
A night of frivolity, love, pin up sailors,
boats, cupcakes, chocolate chip bubbles and treasure.
Sushi, channel v, knifes, white balloons and star gazing with sister in law.
Such a golden night... I will always remember its magic.